I've been trying to write this post for a while now but am only just managing a little bit at a time .
The weather outside is pretty rubbish, it's raining again but without the rain we wouldn't have the lush greenness and blooms like in the above photo would we .
For the past few weeks I just haven't been able to settle , I'll start doing something and within 10 minutes I'll be doing something else. The only thing I've succeeded in doing for any amount of time is to clean and with having two boys and two German Shepherds there's always quite a lot to do.
The baby cardigan I had started in my last post , well, I've done the back but got a bit stuck on the left front part of it. Whenever I used to get stuck with knitting I would always ring my mam and this time I couldn't . I ended up sitting with it on my knee in floods of tears.... A Ravelry friend managed to help me understand where I had gone wrong so I tried to continue with it and thought I had but when I had finished that part I realised I'd mixed up two parts of the pattern and had got it completely messed up . It's now sitting in my knitting bag and every time I even think about trying again I just become all teary so I'm thinking that maybe now isn't the right time to do it .
I'm sure things will calm down but I'm not sure when and it may even happen without me realising , for the minute it's just taking it one day at a time and not forcing myself to do things.
My apologies for not always commenting on your blog posts, I hope you understand.
Oh I can relate, it's awful isn't it? I keep thinking I'll call Mum about things as well and then it all floods back. You mustn't worry about blog world, everyone understands, just look after yourself, as best you can and hopefully as time goes by things will feel more settled for you. All my best wishes. Beth/thelinencat xx
ReplyDeleteNo one will expect you to keep up with things like commenting on blogs Lisa, those who care about you will always understand that you're not around as much. You have more than enough to cope with in just keeping a brave face on for your boys and carrying on with day to day stuff. Beth said it so perfectly, just look after yourself as best as you can and like you said take things one day at a time. Thinking of you lots and wishing you happier times xxx
ReplyDeleteOh Lisa, I'm sorry to hear that you're having a rough time. Go slow and be good to yourself!
ReplyDeleteOh, you mustn't worry about anyone else expect for yourself. Poor old you, it must be so hard to cope with. I can only hope that at some stage it will become a little easier. Juliex
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ReplyDeleteLisa I am sorry to hear that you are feeling unsettled. Don't force things on yourself. If you don't want to carry on with the knitting then just leave it be for the time being. Don't give yourself challenges at the moment. Go with the flow. x
ReplyDeleteI'm going to win the lottery, buy a huuuuge house where we can all knit and sew to our hearts' content, have chickens, a vegetable garden and Ricky Hall as butler. It won't be a butler type of set up, but we've got to give him a purpose! Then we can knit and figure things out together. Your mum would be so proud of you Lisa xx
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